It's 12:35 and I just got home early from my midnight shift. No she didn't die, but the family was staying the night.
None of us believe she will live through to daylight.
I watched them as they watched their beloved Aunt struggle to breathe, struggle and fight to take a breath and it was a painful thing to watch.
The young man, her nephew, lost it and said he thought he should be used to it by now and he said he wished he didn't feel so deeply. So when he looked me in the eye, boldly *sigh* I took it as permission to speak.
I told him I think it's ok to feel so deeply because if we don't feel our emotions it means we've closed them off. Basic Healing 101 ya?? We think we can shut off the painful bits of our emotions and just allow the happy ones, but in reality & what we sometimes don't understand, is if we shut off some, we shut off them all; the good, the happy, & the cheerful as well as the anger, pain, & sorrow.
Our emotions are a gift and we share them in transparent vulnerability. We make ourselves available to share with those around us.
We weep with those who weep and we laugh with those who laugh and we just love everyone who comes along our path.
Mother Theresa said, "You love till there is pain, you love through the pain until all that's left is love".
I like that. I think I will put it in my Quote Journal.
God bless you and your emotions as you walk one day at a time.
Girl on a Journey of emotional vulnerability.