"Love is not love which alters when it alteration finds . . ." Wm Shakespeare

Friday, October 26, 2012

In Spite of . . . .

All the tantrums, rants and trying any sort of emotional manipulation I hope will affect a change . . . . God does not move. He is not swayed to change course mid-plan. 

However, He will patiently and lovingly wait for the tantrum to cease then quietly ask, "Are you ready to move on now?" No condemnation, no harsh replies, just understanding, compassion and love. (It's hard to fight against someone who will not fight back!!)

It is not easy to have heard God say something, figure you know exactly what He said, but have it take a turn you never expected and have a hard time swallowing. Such is the life I live *sigh*

I am not considered a stupid woman by anyone who knows me, but the fact that I consistently think I have God's plan for me figured out each time something new comes along, well . . . . I think that refutes the opinions of others!

When will I ever, as in EVER, learn I cannot figure God out??

When will I ever, as in DOUBLE EVER, learn He's got a plan for my life and no matter how much I rage against it when it doesn't make any sense to me, or doesn't go the way I hope it will, He will consistently be faithful to that plan, which is to be faithful to me?

When will I ever learn His faithfulness is based on His love?

When will I ever learn I cannot comprehend that kind of love?

And, when will I ever learn to just accept and rest/trust in His love and let that be my anchor in this twisting turning life I really can no longer pretend I understand?

I don't have an answer to the above questions, not even one of them. I'm guessing this is how trust is built.

But this is my problem with trust . . . . it cannot be built through events happening or not happening based upon my own understanding or perception of how it 'should' happen. Trust can only be built when you look not at the circumstances, but at the character of the one who is asking you to trust them.

So, I believe, it is with God. In spite of deep disappointment and frustration with certain circumstances, if we choose to look at His character and not on the circumstance, that makes trusting Him a little more palatable.

I know 2011 was all about finding out I don't, or didn't love others as God would have me love (still learning as I go), but 2012 is ALL about trusting God.

I can say for certain, it's been the rockiest road I've ever traveled and sorry to say, I've not handled it well, which is why it's not over yet. I must confess I'm not sure I want to see what He's going to do in 2013, but that's a future thought so I'm just going to leave it there!

Here is a quote that is a huge challenge for me, but nails the situ perfectly.

"Let me say I believe God will supply all my need and then let me run dry with no outlook and see whether I will go through the trial of faith . . . . or sink back to something lower" Oswald Chambers

Blessings to you as you journey into a deeper faith, trust in God,

Girl on a Journey of deep Trust  :-)

Thursday, October 4, 2012

Good Soil or ????

I was reading the book of Luke this morning and in chapter 8 it talks about the different soils the seed can fall onto.

I always thought I was the 'good' soil because I heard the word and responded with acceptance, then followed on to what I believed was good fruit, but today I'm thinking that may not be the cut-and-dried case as I once thought it was.

Let me explain, but first here is the parable:

Luke 8:12 "Those beside the road are those who have heard; then the devil comes and takes away the word from their heart, so that they will not believe and be saved. 

NOPE that wasn't me *whew* and serves as the basis for the above belief.

However . . . .

Luke 8:13 "Those on the rocky soil are those who, when they hear, receive the word with joy and these have no firm root, they believe for a while and in time of temptation fall away.

 Luke 8:14 "The seed which fell among the thorns, these are the ones who have heard, and as they go on their way they are choked with worries and riches and pleasures of this life and bring no fruit to maturity.

Luke 8:15 "But the seed in the good soil, these are the ones who have heard the word in an honest and good heart, and hold it fast, and bear fruit with perseverance" What stuck me this morning were the results of the different soils and I realized I have 'fruit' or the lack thereof from the rocky soil, the thorny soil and some from the good soil.

The tell-tale factors are thus ~ I have had times of temptation over the years when I've fallen away. 

I have had times when I've been choked by worries which only served to bring doubt and unbelief into my life and ill health has at times been the result. It has also resulted in conflict with family and friends and just plainly not done me any good at all. 

Although I cannot say I've had to worry about 'riches' and the stumbling that can cause our faith, I can see where the lack of riches has had a deleterious affect. 

And, let's not forget the pleasures this world can offer. Not saying pleasurable things are wrong, but when they are our primary priority, to have or find pleasure above all else, when it's not wise or has the potential of taking us down a road which leads to outright sin, well that robs us of the growth and fruit that seed could have produced if we had kept on without being sidetracked.

Click to show "Pomegranate" result 18Last but not least, there are some areas of my life where the seed has produced good fruit, so I'm grateful for that. I can see areas where I have patiently persevered and see the good fruit from that. No, not as much as I'd like, but it's still there.

I want to encourage us all to set God's plan for our lives as our top priority, rather than temptations which not only give a moment of fleeting pleasure, but often result in a longer term sorrow. 

I want to encourage us all to  hold fast the seed which was planted and with patient perseverance find our reward in seeing good fruit for our efforts and patience.

Blessings to you on your own journey with God. May the seed that's been planted in your life be planted in the good soil of patient perseverance.

Girl on her own Journey of sewing seed and reaping fruit!